My story has always been that I don’t like the taste, but now that I know I’m autistic, as well as, well…when I say a diagnosis, it is a symbol that triggers the opening of a mental room and the characters of me that live in those rooms. I have not been officially diagnosed withContinue reading “The main reason I stopped drinking at 27”
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Control, relationships, and bipolar symptoms, oh my.
On November 28 I told a friend I was irrationally angry with a close friend, but my meds were working so I wasn’t ready to end the relationship, yet. So was that the paranoia building up in the manic/hypomanic episode? I recognized my anger was irrational, but I couldn’t dissolve it. Because I felt shutContinue reading “Control, relationships, and bipolar symptoms, oh my.”
How I Let Go and Let God
My mother died when I was 12, and Dad dated a psychic after she died. That psychic foresaw me becoming a writer and a tarot reader. And my 13 year old brain accepted the program. My suffering meant something. I was going to help people tell their stories, and share mine so others wouldn’t feelContinue reading “How I Let Go and Let God”
Writing a poem to work out my feelings, but with the skills of a rusty MFA
I’m sorry I acted like my heart was broken open and I was bleeding out When you left and refused communication with me I died I broke again And I put myself back together by raging at you Taking you out of my heart so you couldn’t hurt it more But I kept the hurt,Continue reading “Writing a poem to work out my feelings, but with the skills of a rusty MFA”
Reflecting on my teenage self; she didn’t know she really was alien.
Thinking about myself as a teen college student and feeling like I should send some professors apologies…lol If they are still alive. Sadly, most of my favorites have died. I thought I sounded excited when I sounded arrogant. I thought, when they said treat them as peers, that I should treat them the way theContinue reading “Reflecting on my teenage self; she didn’t know she really was alien.”
A New Voice In My Head Emerged This Morning.
Her name is Sheila and her favorite color is amethyst. I tried to type this story up earlier, and had my husband read it. He got it, and I deleted it instead of publishing it because seven planets are in retrograde and my butt chakra hurts, or some shit. I don’t know. What I doContinue reading “A New Voice In My Head Emerged This Morning.”
I successfully avoided my feelings all day, until my sissy of the heart told me how I was really feeling. I managed to hold onto my denial until Keith came in and started infodumping about German goth rock. Bless him, but I have no audio or visual for many of the words he dumped, andContinue reading
Imagining Universal Income and how it might change society/culture.
This longish exploration of my thinking starts sad/mad and ends hopeful. I think. 😁. Sparked by reading about Dahmer’s father…and ends with a brief thought about the Bible I’ll explore more later… I have felt passionately, since I was a young child, that parents are to blame when children murder. But now, at 42, IContinue reading “Imagining Universal Income and how it might change society/culture.”
Adventures of an Earthborn Alien 