Someone’s breaking point, how we behave when we reach it, that’s not “the real” us. Character is something we play around others so they like us. How you behave when you are well -supported, that’s the real you. We are meant to support each other, social mammals, primates, us. When we choose to treat othersContinue reading “Character, Trauma, Ignorance and Understanding”
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A Visual Aid To Help Me Tell My Stories
In hindsight, I finally figured out my last 2023 conversation with T (green dot.) She was referring to behavior I’d already forgotten – because that’s how my brain works. She then got mad and told me off because I wasn’t hiding my frustration. I told them I was grieving and having a hard time, butContinue reading “A Visual Aid To Help Me Tell My Stories”
Before I Knew I Was Autistic…
I used to believe so many things, before I figured out I was autistic, before the diagnosis. I believed I suffered so I could help others heal. I believed I was psychic because I’d given thousands of readings over the decades, and smashed it out of the park for all but a handful that IContinue reading “Before I Knew I Was Autistic…”
What I think happened, after a few weeks reflection
She said she thought we were being triggered by each other, and two of the others were IMing with me privately at the same time. I wanted us all to talk together as a group so I could understand better, but no one wanted to, I guess. I felt unheard, frustrated, and was grieving DadContinue reading “What I think happened, after a few weeks reflection”
A Writer and a Psychic
I just met with my writing group for the first time in several weeks. I had three ideas for our writing assignment tonight. 1 – remember a time as a child or young person and you needed guidance, but didn’t get it. Imagine going back as the guide you needed then. Write your conversation. 2Continue reading “A Writer and a Psychic”
Conservatives and Liberals live in different worlds.
I think I figured out a way for me to understand why conservatives and liberals tend to parent so differently. Most conservatives are blue collar workers from their teen years to death, and many of them joined the military as teens. Most of them started their families in their teens or young twenties. Our brainsContinue reading “Conservatives and Liberals live in different worlds.”
The main reason I stopped drinking at 27
My story has always been that I don’t like the taste, but now that I know I’m autistic, as well as, well…when I say a diagnosis, it is a symbol that triggers the opening of a mental room and the characters of me that live in those rooms. I have not been officially diagnosed withContinue reading “The main reason I stopped drinking at 27”
Control, relationships, and bipolar symptoms, oh my.
On November 28 I told a friend I was irrationally angry with a close friend, but my meds were working so I wasn’t ready to end the relationship, yet. So was that the paranoia building up in the manic/hypomanic episode? I recognized my anger was irrational, but I couldn’t dissolve it. Because I felt shutContinue reading “Control, relationships, and bipolar symptoms, oh my.”
My college nickname, 22 years ago: Queen TMI
You have now been warned. Bloody hell ahead. I hate cramps. Having kids gave me the worst cramps, no. It was the damn copper IUD, that gave me the worst cramps. And gods it was torture getting it in! Ever since I got it, in 2009, after having Aiden, I have had the most painfulContinue reading “My college nickname, 22 years ago: Queen TMI”
I wish I could just turn my emotions off sometimes.
But I still don’t drink. I have enough trouble with my various mental illnesses. I’m meeting my parts. Some of them are giddy with freedom and power. Others are angry, grieving, and some are wondering why we can’t drop from exhaustion and finally sleep. The less stress in my life, the best life. I haveContinue reading “I wish I could just turn my emotions off sometimes.”
Adventures of an Earthborn Alien 