Recommitment

It’s been over a year, and I want to commit to writing in this blog weekly.

When I wrote my first book, I had teachers doing all the executive functioning and motivating for me. I had to have my work in, people were waiting on me, I needed to earn at least a B to stay in the MFA program.

When I revised it for publication, I had an editor waiting on me, and potential sales to motivate me.

Now I have all these ideas, all these passions to write about, and I guess I need to attract people to wait on me. I can write for my future readers. lol

Someone in an autistic led group I’m in described her time since her diagnosis as “since I became self-aware.”

The last few years have been a deep dive into self awareness for me.

I didn’t just work with my shadow. When I was manic, I embodied it.

I’m supposed to take responsibility for behavior I couldn’t control and wasn’t aware was hurtful until after I’d already done it. I don’t know how to do that. So I’ll write about it, maybe figure it out.

There are so many things I want to write about today. The war in Iran being supported by Evangelicals and MAGAs, for one. But I need to finish my morning pages and figure out my next blogpost or few.